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Akhila Diaries
A place for thoughts, feelings, stories and the little things I want to remember.


Carry
What Grief Gave Me That I Never Asked For There are things I would give anything to change. Moments I would go back to. Conversations I wish I could still have. But grief gave me things too. Things I never asked for, and would never have chosen to learn this way. It changed my relationship with fear. Fear of failing, especially. Once you've experienced something that breaks your heart, the possibility of something not working out doesn't seem quite so frightening anymore. You

Nicola Paxton
Oct 82 min read


Ahimsa
What Does Ahimsa Actually Look Like in daily practice? In yoga philosophy, the Yamas are five principles that explore how we relate to the world around us. They are often described as ethical guidelines, but I prefer to think of them as invitations to look a little more honestly at the way we move through life. The five Yamas are: Ahimsa — non-violence Satya — truthfulness Asteya — non-stealing Brahmacharya — wise use of energy Aparigraha — non-grasping or letting go They are

Nicola Paxton
Oct 82 min read


Seven Other Ways
We MUST get this idea out of our heads that yoga = movement. That the more advanced the asana you can do, the “better” you are at yoga. Or, worse, that what you wear or how you look while practising has to fit some kind of yoga stereotype. No wonder so many people don’t even set foot inside a yoga studio. It can feel incredibly off-putting. Every teacher training or yoga course I’ve attended was taught by Indian teachers, in an ashram, wearing traditional kurtas and loose-fit

Nicola Paxton
Oct 42 min read


Stories
The magic in between pause Human theatrics on full display No filters Delirious sleepless fog Sore feet Sore shoulders Checking your privileges, compliances and choices Take down of your ego Welcome deconstruction How beautiful to remember your spark How beautiful to remember your impermanence In a rush? No one cares Laugh at yourself Laugh at your illusion that you ever had control That first walk in a new town you’ve never set foot in before - yet how familiar it feels Has

Nicola Paxton
Oct 43 min read


Roads
Maybe this was you all along. It seems life right now isn’t about what you hoped it would be … or what you thought it should be. It's about juggling heartbreak, slow mornings and vulnerability. Riding waves of emotional highs and lows so fucking gracefully. Sitting with it all and sometimes talking to him in the darkness. Maybe this was you all along. It could be that your life right now isn’t about climbing mountains or pushing a business. Perhaps your focus is to finally le

Nicola Paxton
Oct 12 min read


Stardust
Do we ever really lose anything or anyone? Every time we ‘lose’ are we actually gaining? Someone jumps out of your life, another person walks in. The illusion of loss instils fear in all of us and is perhaps the harshest and most human of feelings to contend with. How can someone be cut from your life so suddenly? In life and in love. Take a look around you. We think we are standing still but this earth is always moving. We believe we own things but it turns out our things ow

Nicola Paxton
Oct 11 min read


Doors
Can you hear me? Can you feel me? Can you see me? I'm talking to you everyday. We came so far but in different directions. Did you feel it when I left? I tried to control it. To shut out the conversation between my heart and soul. To dampen the awakening of my mind. To quieten the signals my body was giving me. To not hear the words screaming from my very being... but they got louder. I had to listen. I had to grow up. I had to cry. I had to run. I had to detach. I had to vis

Nicola Paxton
Oct 12 min read


Mountains
My thighs are made of the mountains Between them, I hold the ocean My heart beat crashes along with the thunder and the entire galaxy shines out from my eyes A woman like me walks hand in hand with the earth, at home within her own island A woman like me does not request your presence but creates and holds space for you to walk alongside her A woman like me is never bored, she is functioning higher than that A woman like me does not make a habit of asking anyone to stay with

Nicola Paxton
Oct 11 min read
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